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When my boys were in nursery school, one of the main goals of the program was to give the children the opportunity and self-confidence to speak for themselves. Their teachers would tell them to "use your words." This became the child's cue to look at their friend and to tell them how they were feeling in a direct, simple way. This phrase became commonplace in our home and was repeated countless times during conflicts between siblings, angry episodes, and in quiet moments to help tears turn into self-expression.
That little sentence gave me the inspiration to start this blog. So now, here I am, using my words.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Connor

My son turned seven today.  This would not be a particularly extraordinary event if it wasn't for the fact that he was just born.

We just got the amnio results back that he would be healthy - none of the suspected chromosomal abnormalities are an issue and my almost constant bleeding has almost disappeared.
I just called the doctor in because I was ready to push.
He just practically flew off the birthing table - the doctor missed the whole thing.  Thank God for good and kind and ever-present nurses!
He just blew bubbles at me in the recovery room.
He just met his big brother for the first time.  His eyes widened in awe.
He just came home in his little carseat bucket.  Good grief, those things are heavy.
He just slept in our family's heirloom bassinet for the first time.  My mom and my 3 1/2 year old Ryan decorated for it him, weaving blue ribbon through the wicker the day before his birth.
He just nursed and slept and nursed some more.  Connor was the most placid and cuddly baby ever.  I recall using the word "blissful" to describe him to my mom when he was two weeks old.
He just smiled, and laughed, and rolled over.
He just sat up, crawled and cruised.
He just had a train cake and played drums and turned two.
I just blinked, and he went to nursery school.  Little did I know that the time warp starts now.
He just made friends he will have for the rest of his life.  So did I.
He just watched the class butterflies take wing.  He quickly followed suit.
I just registered him for kindergarten.  I filled out the paperwork with great care.  I mean, how do you adequately "describe your child and their personality traits" in less than two inches of space?  I wrote small...
He just got on the bus for the first time.
I just stopped crying.
He just graduated from kindergarten.
He just learned to swim.
He just received his teacher assignment for first grade.
I just bought him four composition notebooks.
He just lost his second tooth.
I just celebrated his seventh birthday in the classroom today.
He just watched family videos with me tonight, and laughed at how little he once was.

Funny, because I cried.

Happy birthday, dearest Connor.
You are an old soul who knows how to laugh and spread joy like no other.
You are a gift, and I am unspeakably grateful.

4 comments:

  1. everything you write is beautiful and you have such an knack for expressing your gratitude. I love you and yours my dear friend and I AM GRATEFUL!
    All my love, and I wonder if you have found a second career, as an incredible author....

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  2. I echo everything that Brenda said, and then some! Jill, your big-hearted beautiful spirit shines through so clearly, and I am truly inspired by your words. I am delighted that you are writing in this format so that we can all share in it too. I look forward to reading more!

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  3. Thank you all so very much!!!! You guys inspire me to keep going. Love you all!!

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